Chinese society’s Annual Dinner 2008

I didn’t make it this year. All of my classmates went except Ean and I.

Both of us don’t like this kind of occasion unless it is meaningful.

But unfortunately this dinner was not something that worth to attend. It was wasting time.

They call this annual dinner as “Majlis Perpisahan” in Mandarin but actually it is somewhere for you to show off if you wish to do so.

Brand new dress and shoes, make up, hairstyle, expose the body. It was suckssss…

And, you must know to “act”, keep smiling.. don’t you think it is tiring?

一场宛如服装秀的聚会，要卖肉、卖笑……

超恶心。

小时候吃的奶都要吐出来了。 ><

心情很低落

有时候，人生真的会痛苦。我知道我还年轻，不能抱怨太多。可是，自己难过也就算了，但我不想伤害无辜。我思考，我当初的决定错了吗？其实我可以不理会，继续我的生活。但我没有允许自己这么做。我得负责，却没有答案、没有决定。

矛盾。无形墙渐渐筑起、伤害越来越深、距离越来越远。
我连叹气的力气都没有。

我一直强逼自己得到答案。逃避感也在作崇。
我很痛苦。我挣扎。

我一直很痛苦。我不再寻觅。
看了《稻香》MV一遍后，心情也舒畅了许多。

周杰伦很棒。原来歌曲可以拯救灵魂。

睏了，明天吧，希望明天有答案。

加油。

I am feeling bad

I feel bad recently.

I have no idea, I do not know what I should do.

I don’t mean to hurt anyone. I can’t figure out anything.

Do you believe in fate?

I wonder about my fate. I am confused.

Just feeling sad and moody.

Can we change the fate? Fight against it? Do I have the ability to do so?

I am wondering. I choose to believe in certain things. I do not know why I am not interested to do anything about it at all. I am surrendering..?

My heart is in pain. My mind is blank. I can’t think of anything. I am those who must make up the mind or get the answer about something confusing before go to sleep.

This is the first time, I don’t have answer and I didn’t force myself to figure out.

I wonder whether I should tell the person about the problem.

I wonder whether I shared with the correct one. I hope I did. I know I did.

Give me sign, show me what to do.

I am feeling bad. I am sad.

我

各位乡亲父老兄弟姐妹，
我叫诗雨。
有了新名字……
见到我记得叫多几声，诗雨诗雨诗雨……

uncontrollable

I met my old friends yesterday. We gathered at Gasoline.

They had changed a lot. I could not recognize some of them. Actually I just met with few persons, I was unable to attend the gathering last time or else I will be unable to recognize more persons.

I miss them. I felt sad too. Life is uncontrollable. Sometimes we are forced to make unwilling changes or decisions.

汉雄、伟康、易霖、汶皓、佩雯……我会记得你们。

As long as we are happy. That would be nice.

I miss my old friends.

I was very busy during last few weeks, keep rushing for assignments. Now I just left some work got to be done. This kind of life keeps repeating.

Every semester’s routine is the same. Once we start a new semester, we will be given a lot of major subjects’ course works. By the time we finish and pass up, it’s time for us to rushing for minor subjects’ course works. After that, examinations are smiling and waving to us. It is a circle, keep on repeating until we graduate.

My schooling life is different with others which are studying in universities or colleges. I got to admit that I am envy about their lives. My university life is totally different with them. My campus is same status with university but the system and life is exactly same with secondary school. *%@#

I miss my old friends. I remember what had a friend told me before. She said secondary school time is the best time for us to make friends. When we go to tertiary education or getting older, we are hard to find true friends. I am strongly agreed with her now.


I miss my old friends.

Well Done, Lee Chong Wei

What a long time didn’t update my blog. I should have written something.

I was wanted to write about the Olympic male single badminton final match and the closing ceremony but end up writes nothing. The feeling will be different if you didn’t jot down when it comes to you.

Chong Wei got a silver medal for Malaysia. It is the only one medal for the country. We felt proud! All the hard work of him was paid off although he got the silver but not gold.

He didn’t play well. Something had gone wrong with him. We felt nervous when we were watching the match, but at the same time, he was more nervous than us. He was carrying all Malaysians’ hope on him. He was carrying a heavy burden on him. Malaysians understand that and none of us blame on him, but we thanked him. His silver medal had brought the position of Malaysia had moved forward among the 204 countries.

We thanked his coach too. Both of them had made us proud.

We hope they will have better achievement in future. Well done.